Thursday, June 19, 2008

This is merely to vent...

After almost a year, it doesn't get any easier. I get to work this morning and immediately get an email from our team leader that she and her husband are expecting their first baby after only trying a couple of months. Really? Are you kidding me? I immediately start sobbing and have to go to my car just to calm down.

Does it get any easier? I guess not since I headed straight for Mc Donald's for lunch....not having ANY thought of my weight loss plan in mind. I just needed something to comfort me :)

But seriously...WHY? This is obviously rhetorical. I don't want any encouragement, blessings, thoughts.....actually I do....but not on here. This isn't why I am writing. I just need to get my thoughts out. Michael and I kept missing each other on the phone so I wasn't able to talk to the only person that understands ME. Yes, I know there are many (far too many) people that understand where I am coming from....but you don't know ME.

We are having a baby shower tomorrow here at work for one of my other co-workers expecting in August. I asked her, selfishly, if she minded I not come. She understands.

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