Monday, June 30, 2008


So I fall asleep on the couch with Michael while watching a movie last night. I wake up at the end...find my way upstairs (halfway asleep)....find the toilet in the dark to pee before getting into bed...and....
DROP my phone in the toilet. Seriously? still works.

Monday, June 23, 2008

I have an interview tomorrow for a MS ELA/Coaching position for a school in town. PLEASE pray that this one works out. It is exactly what I am looking for and MORE!

I also have an interview Wednesday at a school about an hour from here. Though the commute would be horrible, it is pray for that as well :)
Yesterday was hard. My baby Charlie left me :( Michael and I kept him all weekend and soaked up as much cuddle time as possible before they headed across the country yesterday. We kept him up late both Friday and Saturday nights just to love on him. HE was the one telling us he wanted to go nigh-night. My bad.

Today is a good day. I could cry, but I'm not going to. I have a lot to look forward to in the next couple of months. In 10 days I leave for a sister vacation in Georgia! All 4 of us sisters (with all kids in tow...well, Max has to stay at home) are heading to April's house to play with Riley! I absolutely cannot wait. I get a couple of days of Riley-time by myself before Amy and Misti get there. You better believe I'm going to cuddle with her all day!

I am also waiting to hear back from an interview I had for a middle school teaching position. I sent out 7 more applications at the end of last week, so hopefully some interviews will come from that as well.

In the middle of July, I head out of town for a best-friends-from-college weekend :) + a new addition (baby Mason).

See...I have a lot to look forward to! Yesterday was still one of the hardest days in my life thus far.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

This is merely to vent...

After almost a year, it doesn't get any easier. I get to work this morning and immediately get an email from our team leader that she and her husband are expecting their first baby after only trying a couple of months. Really? Are you kidding me? I immediately start sobbing and have to go to my car just to calm down.

Does it get any easier? I guess not since I headed straight for Mc Donald's for lunch....not having ANY thought of my weight loss plan in mind. I just needed something to comfort me :)

But seriously...WHY? This is obviously rhetorical. I don't want any encouragement, blessings, thoughts.....actually I do....but not on here. This isn't why I am writing. I just need to get my thoughts out. Michael and I kept missing each other on the phone so I wasn't able to talk to the only person that understands ME. Yes, I know there are many (far too many) people that understand where I am coming from....but you don't know ME.

We are having a baby shower tomorrow here at work for one of my other co-workers expecting in August. I asked her, selfishly, if she minded I not come. She understands.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

I made the choice yesterday to change my life. Up until this point, I have been completely miserable in my own skin. Why you ask? Because I have gained 60 pounds in the last 2 1/2 years. What in the world?

So, I am starting this new blog....for my new journey. I am on my way to being 60 pounds lighter.

I also confess that before today, Michael and I hadn't been to church in quite a while. I no longer had a valid excuse....I just didn't want to go. There were so many points during worship that I could have broken down in many emotions running through me.

In 7 days, my sister and her family will be moving 1500 miles away from me when I am used to them only being a couple minutes away. I knew I would start crying as soon as I began writing this.... I can't even begin to describe what Amy means to me. She is way more than a sister. She is one of my best friends. She and Andy have done so much for me, and I know I will never be able to repay even half of it. Charlie has filled the void that Michael and I have delt with this past year after losing a baby. I am going to miss the 3 of you more than you will ever know. I love you.